Without persistence, any wish is like a vanishing air. Learning is a pretty big thing. It is essential but one can be swayed by it’s infinite scope. It is useful pretty much not unless you have lost your humanity with it. What do I mean? One is a judge in itself, so do practice pre-caution on doing things. Do not open pandora’s box up until you are ready. Knowledge is like that.
Mesmerized by the thought of being sophisticated, one can forget where they are in truth. With feet flattened down to earth, assess what it is that you want. In the end, that is what will keep you in moving forward.
Who am I to tell these things? I am but a wanderer who tries to thread upon the vast sea of facts. I am trying to find what it is that I want and what it is that is useful. Hope sometimes bleaks out but in the end you have to find that desire to improve. Life is threatening and most of us have been engulfed by its fury. Slowly but surely time eats away in one’s life. Be careful of what you want to learn and be keen enough to stay on the line.
There is much beauty and wonder to what people are. We have emotions and feelings that is not evident to machines. As I go through my journey into the programming world, I came to realize so much about humans and life itself. Experiences of people are like gradients. They are full of color and sometimes full of compromises. Those compromises can be good sometimes and be destructive with the wrong motives.
Machines have a different language. They are definitive and uniform. The statement of zeros and ones can never be too good. They are just true or false. In to this context I presume that humans are better. We have this thing called shades and brightness. Those things really matter. No matter how good a programmer is, they are still subject to those emotions and feelings. No human can be exempt to this. That is the complexity of life.
As a struggling web designer and software engineer, I find myself in the endless loop of finding answers that somewhat makes me lost in the mix. Even though I am in the tide of endless surging waves, I still find the hope to move on. There is this purpose that is embedded in my heart that someday would be a fruit to something good. Maybe that is the only thing that matters. Having hope means that something good is on its way.
Lately, life is not as good. Circumstances of some sort is creeping in and I can’t seem to find my rhythm. Even so, I have to go on. I have to paddle harder into this storm that will never seem to cease. It’s just that I have to be strong enough to keep on paddling. I know that this has been the dilema of many but I refuse to give up. I can still do something good in this field. I refuse to go down!
I remember the days when someone prominent discouraged me in pursuing my preferred job. Now I am forever grateful for that instance because I am now pursuing the things I want to do. Honestly it is hard to do the things you want to become. The path is not as smooth as you think and there will be instances that will make the ride more rough. Nevertheless, it is more gratifying to pursue things that you want rather than sticking with the same thing that you dislike. Life is not forgiving and most of the time what is in your mind does not come into life unless you put your own life in the line. What does that mean? Basically it is putting your very life into the dream. It may sound very dreamish but in reality it is hard work.
I am in the business where the zeros and ones matter. Logic is everything and whether you spend much time or less time, it all boils down to the result. Humans have a different interpretations of what the result is. Most people have gradients coming from zero to one. However in the world I choose to move, there is only zeros and ones. It’s either you make it or not. I guess that is the life of engineers. Now it does not mean that we are just machines. I do breathe and move and enjoy life. It’s just that I am moving into the place where it really matters. Maybe for some what I am doing right now is just a little thing. I guess the journey is far more rewarding than the destination.
One of the key component I guess is time. Without time, no one could create any form. Most people think about the outcome and they celebrate it very vibrantly but disregard the struggle to achieve the feat. It is really unfair to call it talent when someone gets the success. Much time, effort, sweat and blood was spent to hone such skill. For me, getting there is no more satisfying than fulfilling the things you have in mind.
Before, all I ever got to do is wishful thinking. I keep on saying things that I want to do or accomplish but never really doing it. Sad part is when I bump into a wall, I am quick to give up and never rise again. Standing up is always part of having a form. If you have not yet fallen then maybe you are still under achieving. With great dream comes with so much responsibility. Responsibility means not just standing up but sometimes it will catch you on your knees. Sometimes even so low with your knees still does not accomplish anything. What I have learned is taking heart and moving on is the most important thing. Just don’t stop.