As I recall, it’s been about around a year already since I have started to pursue an online freelance career. As time passed by, I have been studying and to be honest I have nothing yet significant in my income. However, I am beginning to be definite in the things that I want to do. I have to do it. I have to put it to simplest task so that I would have no choice but to do it. Before, I just do things because I want to. If I feel that I do not have the urge then I would not do it. This is the result maybe of my procrastination. In my mind I am progressing but there is no significant movement.
This time I want to be specific and time bound. No more buts. No more ifs. I have to do it!
Without persistence, any wish is like a vanishing air. Learning is a pretty big thing. It is essential but one can be swayed by it’s infinite scope. It is useful pretty much not unless you have lost your humanity with it. What do I mean? One is a judge in itself, so do practice pre-caution on doing things. Do not open pandora’s box up until you are ready. Knowledge is like that.
Mesmerized by the thought of being sophisticated, one can forget where they are in truth. With feet flattened down to earth, assess what it is that you want. In the end, that is what will keep you in moving forward.
Who am I to tell these things? I am but a wanderer who tries to thread upon the vast sea of facts. I am trying to find what it is that I want and what it is that is useful. Hope sometimes bleaks out but in the end you have to find that desire to improve. Life is threatening and most of us have been engulfed by its fury. Slowly but surely time eats away in one’s life. Be careful of what you want to learn and be keen enough to stay on the line.
There is much beauty and wonder to what people are. We have emotions and feelings that is not evident to machines. As I go through my journey into the programming world, I came to realize so much about humans and life itself. Experiences of people are like gradients. They are full of color and sometimes full of compromises. Those compromises can be good sometimes and be destructive with the wrong motives.
Machines have a different language. They are definitive and uniform. The statement of zeros and ones can never be too good. They are just true or false. In to this context I presume that humans are better. We have this thing called shades and brightness. Those things really matter. No matter how good a programmer is, they are still subject to those emotions and feelings. No human can be exempt to this. That is the complexity of life.
As a struggling web designer and software engineer, I find myself in the endless loop of finding answers that somewhat makes me lost in the mix. Even though I am in the tide of endless surging waves, I still find the hope to move on. There is this purpose that is embedded in my heart that someday would be a fruit to something good. Maybe that is the only thing that matters. Having hope means that something good is on its way.
Lately, life is not as good. Circumstances of some sort is creeping in and I can’t seem to find my rhythm. Even so, I have to go on. I have to paddle harder into this storm that will never seem to cease. It’s just that I have to be strong enough to keep on paddling. I know that this has been the dilema of many but I refuse to give up. I can still do something good in this field. I refuse to go down!